We all want that perfect beach body

Over the years I have learned one thing, and that is we all have the perfect beach body. I have hated my looks, my body, and even myself because of my size. It didn't matter what how hard I worked to have that perfect image us women have been told we have to look like. You know the one, the barbie doll look. There's nothing wrong with a woman (or man) who is carrying around some extra baggage. Not everyone looks or acts the same and that's a good thing. We should embrace out differences and celebrate who we are. Like that old saying goes, "It's what's on the inside that counts."

Don't let people get you down. Only you know how truly worthwhile you are... And  you are totally worthwhile. Feeling worthless and useless are some of the worst feelings a person can have. Take your clothes off and look long and hard at yourself. Forget the blemish's and focus on the things you love about yourself. Maybe you're good looking, your toned, you have big breasts, small breast, nice curves, flat stomach, muscles... whatever it is take a mental picture and store it away for those days, hours, minutes when you might be experiencing negative self talk. Pull that picture out storage and say "The part of me I don't like can be worked on. Here is the list of things I like, or better yet, love about myself.

It's summer time so grab your beach towel and head to the beach (doesn't matter if its the ocean, the bank next to a river, or even a lake) and after taking precautions not to get sunburned, layout and enjoy the sun. Go for a swim. Play with the kids in the water, or in the sand. While you're at it take pictures, and don't forget to include the selfies or to have someone else take pictures of you.

People my make comments, but for the most part they are all happy to see you out enjoying yourself! No matter your size and shape there will always be those who love to see you happy with yourself and that you can be confident in the decisions you make and the things you do.

Staying true to what I'm trying to achieve here and that is to show that everybody is desired and can be a model. Here's one of the first pictures I allowed to be take of me after I put on weight. I was feeling shy and embarrassed, but now I look back at that day and realize I experienced, at that moment, what it felt like to be sexy and model a swimsuit. Modeling doesn't can mean many things to many different people. I looked into bbw modeling and found this particular company was looking for adults who weren't afraid to take their clothes off. I was so embarrassed to even think about doing something like that, that I never contacted the company again. Things have changed since then, not in the sense that I'd go live on camera doing what others want, but in the fact that I'm no longer look at myself in complete and utter disgust. Self-hatred is another one of the worst feelings a person could have. I won't lie. There are some days where I still can't look in the mirror, even with my clothes on, but I work on the positive self talk and listen to others. For years, people have told me I'm beautiful, sexy, and desired. I never believed them because of all the negative I heard and experienced. Now, I know I'm hot, sexy, and definitely desired. We all are sexy and desired. Embrace it, love it, and show it. Being confident about yourself really helps to bring in even more positives.

I just recently started opening up and allowing my better half look at me and see me as I am. I also force myself to look in the mirror and see who I am. Look past the fat and to see the person is the biggest key of all. It still embarrasses me to not be covered at all times, but opening up and being who I am includes times of complete exposure - physically and emotionally.

This picture received a lot of attention and I absolutely loved every minute of it. You don't have to be completely exposed to get the attention you crave. As time goes on you'll see more and less of me, just to prove a point that anyone can model anything and still look sexy - no matter their size, height, and shape.

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