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Fueling the Fire

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After a constant battle of being told "You're supposed to look like this," or "You should weigh X amount," or "Your weight should be falling off of you because you're so big." I felt like a complete failure and gave on myself and life. I tried to have the gastric bypass, but the weight continued to go up instead of down. I hit my highest, just before surgery in 2016. My weight was 369. I was ready to die so when I was diagnosed in 2016 with cancer I thought,  This is the perfect time for me to cross. I have nothing left.    My best friend wouldn't let me go without a fight. I agreed to have a hysterectomy - the found cervical cancer in my uterus as well as pre-uterun cancer. The surgery was the last thing I wanted to do. In fact even after the surgery I did very little to survive. Fast forward. One year to the day I had back surgery. Again the surgery was more for him than for me. No one wanted me around or so I thought. This lin...
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We all want that perfect beach body

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Over the years I have learned one thing, and that is we all have the perfect beach body. I have hated my looks, my body, and even myself because of my size. It didn't matter what how hard I worked to have that perfect image us women have been told we have to look like. You know the one, the barbie doll look. There's nothing wrong with a woman (or man) who is carrying around some extra baggage. Not everyone looks or acts the same and that's a good thing. We should embrace out differences and celebrate who we are. Like that old saying goes, "It's what's on the inside that counts." Don't let people get you down. Only you know how truly worthwhile you are... And  you are totally worthwhile. Feeling worthless and useless are some of the worst feelings a person can have. Take your clothes off and look long and hard at yourself. Forget the blemish's and focus on the things you love about yourself. Maybe you're good looking, your toned, you have big ...
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Do you ever find yourself wishing you could model certain items like lingerie? I certainly do and I am just now learning to be comfortable with my own body and the way I look. Confidence is the key, no matter your size and shape. Below is a picture that was taken approximately six years ago, just before Christmas Will be taking more pictures soon and posting them  here. This is just the beginning of the pictures that will be going into a portfolio. Enjoy!
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Desire to Change Modeling views

I am a plus size woman who is also short, coming in at the 5'2 mark. There are certain guidelines for models including those in the plus size lineup. It has been my desire for many years to be a model, but never fit into the guidelines. I'm  here to show the world plus size can be sexy and beautiful even if not completely toned. We all come in different shapes and sizes so why do models need to be set into certain height and weight categories. I went to an open casting call almost twenty years ago and was saddened when they turned me away for being too short. Even if I can't model for a professional agency I can still show what I have and model the clothes I buy. My best friend has been extremely supportive and is willing to help me collect all the pictures I can. We will be working to build a professional portfolio for anyone who would like to see it.
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